My dad mentally worked up to going through a very painful operation and for the last few weeks I think he was in two minds about going through with it because of his age and other health problems. It's playing on his mind especially at night. He's a double amputee and diagnosed with aged macular degeneration about 6 months ago but honestly I don't they scared him as much as this does. That's why we call him Tigger because he bounces back from all of these things that life throws at him!

Thanks for caring xx

He's a fighter,  that's good,  you remember that.  The C word scares the *** out of everyone. Honesty if it didn't you'd be more worried as to why it didn't.  You keep fighting his corner along side him.  Xxx

So my dad tells me it could be up to two weeks before we get an appointment :0 To me this is too long! My mum is not doing much better, she's barely eating, being sick and the morphine is messing with her head which is not nice to see :( I've been working as little as possible itching. To get home as soon as I get there, luckily they have been good getting cover when they can so I can leave.

My dad seems to be fussing over her a lot which is angering her as she just wants to be treated normally, I've tried to tell him that he needs to be strong and not so full on but it's fallen on deaf ears. 

It's a waiting game all the time.  You dad doing what he can.  It's only only way he can cope.  Your mom snapping at him a few times will remind him.  Did with Karen's husband.  I know about work but if your home she'd be worse as she's out if her routine.  You need to be there for her sake even when all you do is clock watch. As with the morphine,  you may have to speak to her cancer nurse and ask for advice.  Karen was sleeping a lot when she took it. She was off and on with her food.times she barely ate.  It's hard.  Thinking of you all xxxx

We haven't even got a cancer nurse yet, all we've had is the CT scan & results :( 

I'm useless at work, I can't concentrate and I'm making mistakes, and she seems happy with me at home as I try to lighten the mood rather than dad being upset all the time. I have a colleague who works Monday & Fridays for a few hours so when she's in I leave early. 

My dad had his scan on a Thursday, his results the next day along with his key nurse. I can't believe they are keeping you waiting like this. I'm keeping my fingers crossed you get someone as soon as. XXX

She's had her scan and results but now we are just waiting for her appointment at the hospital. Apparently it is two weeks waiting time and there is nothing we can do before then only wait :( 

I also understand that it's two weeks to get contact not the appointment, we are sick with worry and I just wish it there wasn't the waiting x

It's the waiting around drives you mad but least you have something now.. How has your mom been over the past couple of days?  How's ya dad? X

She has her good moments and her bad :( 

My dad is driving both of us a little crazy to be honest. x