So I'm 17 and have recently found out my dad has leukemia. This is all such a massive shock, it came out of nowhere.He's recently been told that he's high risk, and his survival rates has dropped to 30% which is scary. I've lost my nan to ovarian cancer, I just can't go through it again,I also lost my Stepdads mum to pancreatic cancer the same year,and i'm still not really over their passing and that was about 3 years ago.I want to be with him all the time,just to check he's okay. I don't know if he will die or not but I just cannot cope with it.How would I tell my 7 yr old brother that his dad has died,without completely losing my own mind? I have a lot of love for my dad and I know he's a very strong person which gives him an advantage of getting through this but everytime i go see him in hospital something else has happened or been said about the cancer.I'm just in this constant fear. All I know is that I would not be able to carry on without him, he's a pain in the back but he's also my *** rock. I struggle with depression and anxiety as well so this could really be a massive punch to the face..but i can't let my dad see me weak at all.. just feel like once something good happens,there's always a bombshell ready to explode, just what's the point ?