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LesleyM
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Ian (my hubby) has is 1st appointment with the Oncologist today, His (and mine) feelings are rushing from relief , that its come through so quickly to absolute dread for the outcome, and also a whole range of emotions in the middle.

It is truly wonderful to come on here and post where my head is at .... is it 'normal' to want to rage against the world and everything in it inside , whilst keeping a calm and cheerful outlook on the outside ? 

We know 'it' is inoperable, I guess we were both probably very naive when we were told as we thought it could be cut out then treatment, the stinger was 'no' there is no cutting out 'this sort' of cancer. What we dont understand is why are no abnormalities showing up in his blood ? 

Todays not a good day as I feel useless  thanks all for listening , promise tomorrow ill be back to my usual daft self

much love n hugs to all x Lesley x

 

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    Hello Lesley,

    So how did Ian's first appointment go with the oncologist? I can imagine that it was a very emotional day.

    So many of our forum members will share the feelings you describe, the desire to rage against the world whilst seeming calm on the outside. I hope they will be along soon to share their own story with you.

    If you live in the UK, perhaps you would like to talk things through with our expert nurses? You can ring them on this free number 0808 800 4040, Monday to Friday from 9am to 5pm and ask them about anything you are unsure about.

    Are you feeling a little better today? I sincerely hope so but rest assured that however you feel, we are all here for you.

    Best wishes,

    Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

     

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    Thanks for the reply Lucie, the appointment went really, really well. The Dr we saw was awesome ! so possitive and up beat, he was X Service like my Ian so they jelled straight away, it seemed so unreal that we all spent most of the appointment laughing, Navy V Army never a great combination lol 

    He is fit for chemo, they ordered his prescription while we were there even joking about Ians shape (round is a  shape right lol), He was very thorough going through everything for us , he even asked Ian what he wanted from it ? Ian said to see 65, he is 60 at the moment, the Dr said well thats what we will aim for but its going to be a slog. 

    It was like a breath of fresh air, a life line when all we could see was this nasty nasty thing. My mind is a little less cluttered now and I actually slept 7 hrs straight , compared to my usual 3-4 hrs 

    His next appointment is 27th with his chemo starting a few days later.  Thank you and everyone for your support, it truely is appreciated. At times you may have to forgive me as Ian and I both have an obscure sense of humour I really hope I never offend anyone , its whats getting us through this 'sticky' patch in our lives 

    Much Love & Best Wishes to All and may today be a good one for you x  

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