i am so close with my grandad, I just don't know what I'd do without him. He's been diagnosed with prostae cancer and has to have radiotherapy but he had a mini heart attack and I read his medication could bring on a more fatal heart attack. I just really don't want to lose him. This is the tenth diagnosis in my family, across 4 different people, it just feels like cancer just won't go away. Someone close to me is always fighting it and although it's not me going through it I just feel exhausted like do we really have to do all of this again. Why does it have to be another person I love, why does this have to keep happening. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've been feeling so low and anxious and to make things worse work are piling on the pressure at the moment and I just don't know if I can cope, I just want the pain to stop. Has anyone else felt like this? Does it get better? It seems like one grandads radio starts its going to be worse because of how it will affect him at nearly 80.