i have concerns and worries.

was diagnosed with bowel cancer in a mental hospital in january.

wasnt followed up on at all.

had a painful ecolocospy done on 24 may. at the time staff that done it told me all

was okay, fine and normal that was seen within me.

i believed. FOOL ME believed.

to my upset today i got letter telling me i will be seen at the colorectal surgery

outpatient department on 1 july.

i looked up colorectal surgery and saw it linked to bowel cancer, symptons,

treatment and surgery options. freaked out and scared.

i have a phoabia of needles, drips and bloodworks.

any further treatments and diagnosing to do with those things including surgery I

WONT BE DOING.

also i am trying to get pregnant. if suceede wont do treatment.