I've just been diagnosed with Acute myeloid Leukaemia this week. I had Non Hodgkins Lymphoma for 7 years then a stem cell transplant. I have been in remission for nearly 4 years so this was a total shock. During my years of treatments before I was very sick and in intensive care several times, I was in hospital for months after transplant ( from my sister) as very ill, but not once did I have this terrible fear. I am a very up and positive person and pretty strong personality, but this has floored me. I am getting swellings lumps and bruises in my legs that just swell up within the hour, my legs are weak and getting terrible leg cramps, but mostly I am terribly scared. This feeling is alien to me and is difficult to shake off, maybe if the pains in legs were not so bad. What to do?? My family are very close and I always have someone to talk to , but am frightened to scare them with my weakness and my prognosis
