Hi Suzie,

Yes I get my results tomorrow. I had a lumpectomy 3 weeks ago and my sentinel lymph nodes removed. All I got told from the biopsy was that it was cancer, I'll find out everything else tomorrow.

I'm the same with my hair, if my hair doesn't look good then I don't feel good so the thought of losing it is very scarey. However the more I read things the more I've started to come to terms with the possibility. I don't like the thought of losing my eyelashes at all but eyebrows are more manageable. Nobody can know how it'll feel until it happens though, I'm sure I'll end up in tears and feel like I want to hide away but got to try and stay positive. Even after surgery it still didn't feel real, not until the dressing came off and I saw my scar.

How have your children taken it or are they too young to understand? 

Cherylann xx

Hi Suziesuze. I hope you don't mind me joining in. The cold cap is a device that goes on your head the idea behind it is it freezes your hair follicles to preserve them. I didn't do it. I was very like you for the loss of hair, I had spent five years growing my hair long and loved it. The thought of loosing it hit me hard initially. Then I started to think it's a small price to pay to get rid of any stray cancer cells. My hair started to grow back after number 5 chemotherapy, just little bristles but very welcome to see. I wore my wig in the early days then started to wear woolly beanies when out. Have you had your results yet? The waiting is awful it's torturous not knowing what's going to happen. X

The diary sounds like a good idea Audrey.

Must be so nice to have competed all the treatment :) what happens now? Xx 

Hello

Cold cap is what Audrey said lol sorry I was watching the Masterchef final myself and my 12 year old are rather obsessed with that programme.

Chemo is given into a vein via a drip.I have what's called a PICC line in my arm and my treatment is put into that and bloods taken from it also.It's like a permanent canular without a needle just a think flexible tube.I've found that much better than the nurses finding a vein each time for treatmwnt and bloods.

Radiotherapy is given to the area the cancer was in and it' concentrates on that area rather than the whole body like chemo does.I think it's strong xrays-you go into machine it lasts a few minutes.Can burn your skin a little towards the end like sunburn.Audrey knows more as she has recently finished hers.

After our treatments we have yearly mammogram and that's it I think!! 

Ness x 

Hi Cherylann. It is nice a big relief to finish the treatment. It's a case of now recovering getting life back to a new normal. Starting to walk and swimming over the last few days. I think I will get an appointment to see the oncologist to discuss how I am etc. It will seem a long way of to you but time does pass, I found it better to not look too far ahead and deal with each part of the treatment as it happened x

Hi cherylanne I have not had a proper diganosis yet for treatmemt or how bad it is. I am going back Mon 9th. I only found out last wed.... Kids do know but i wont want them to come with me. They are 18 and 14. I could totally cope with eye brows but not lashes mine are really long. had hair cut into a bob the other month before I knew all this and had loads of comments how healthy and shiny it looked, suited me etc.. I am praying it wont be chemo. a friend of mine had the lump removed and drugs after. 

I was watching posting till 1am last night on you tube of ladies who did a vid diary. one showed the removal omg it was like a huge gun shot wound. I put my hand over my mouth it was a huge crater so im taking it she had all of that taken away. what a shock.

I am going out with an old friend tonight for a complete *** up but i kno we will lend up crying after, shes just lost her mum to cancer at christmas, she was in her 60s. At the moment i keep thinking nope im not going to loose my hair it wont come to that, but deep down its a real fear.

Mu aunty never, she had her breast removed but never lost any hair she had radiotherpy not chemo,

Thinking of you.

Suzie