Hello all, 

My rock that is my dad of 68/9 was diagnosed 2 days ago with cancer of the colon in the way of a mass tumour, which has spread to his liver leaving numerous nodules and also peritonitis. 

He was offered chemotherapy with them saying it may give him another 6/12 months which he politely refused. He's a very stubborn and philosophical man (not a great mix I know) who would rather let the young have his care. He's a great believer of natures outlook on life, where as one passes it makes room for another. 

I'm coping reasonably thanks to my dads outlook. It gives me comfort how accepting he is of his fate, although i do wonder if he's putting on his typical hard face. He's reasonably well in himself at the moment or so it seems, we both find it easy to speak openly about it all. I've asked him if there's anything he'd like to see or do before his time comes, but he's adamant on continuing his daily routine of bird watching and looking after his sister who's not been well for some time. 

I do find myself thinking about his funeral an awful lot, which in turn gets me upset as all I want to do is try and enjoy what time we have. 

Time is also an issue as the doctor only mentioned the time the chemo would give him extra. 

My heart and deepest thoughts go out to all who this evil disease has effected. Xx