My nan was diagnosed with breast cancer around 10-11 years ago (I was around 5 years old). They origninally went in to find a tumour and found the cancer hiding behind it. She was extremely lucky that they found it when they did and she is still alive to this day... however a couple of weeks ago she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. So far this has been so hard on my family and I've been under so much pressure to keep everyone in high spirits. Obviously this is very hard on my mum and my grandad :( The results are not in from any scans yet so we majorly have our fingers crossed that the cancer is not growing around the vein in the pancreas so it can be operated on. I'm really struggling to deal with fact that if she has Chemo I wont be able to see her... Also all I know so far is that some days she is fine, yet others she cant get out of bed, or stays in pjs all day. She repeatedly has morning sickness and my worst nightmare is seeing my hero and best friend slowly deterioate. I just want to be able to help her in some way. I have no one to talk to so I came here for advice :)

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I physically can't imagine life without her.