Hello Laura,

I know this is an old post but I could really do with someone to talk to, I've been for a coloscopy today and the doctor saw what she said was very suspicious with a high risk of it being cancer, she said there was a nasty infection there as well, she sat me down I was in total shock, she did the biopsy and said the cells just fell away, I need mri and ct to see if it has spread, I'm so frightened, the only symptoms I've had is a few spots of blood on the toilet roll, and a bit of pelvic pain , I'm frightened to death x

Hi Dawn, 

I understand that this is a frightening time but you are doing the right thing in taking care of your health. Like Minska said, cervical cancer is treatable. Take it one day, one appointment, and one treatment at a time, if it comes to that. You can do it! Let us know how you do.

Laura xx

Woke up in absolute terror again this morning, i want to know the results of the ct scan but I'm dreading the phone ringing all night I've been waking up thinking it's gone to far and knowing it's my own fault if it has because I didnt have a smear dor 13 years, my family could have been saved from the upset there going through, I've been stupid and selfish and I'm torturing myself about that xx

I didn’t have a smear for a lot longer than 13 years and did the torturing myself thing too. And then ignored MAJOR red flag symptoms for the best part of a year before seeing a doctor. Don’t beat yourself up about something you cannot change-you need to deal with the present rather than what has been in the past. But I do know how hard that is. I first assumed that my cancer would have spread and would be untreatable, but that was not the case at all, and my nurse was kind enough to phone me with my ct scan results to confirm no spread which was a huge relief. You are not stupid, not selfish, just unfortunate to have a cancer diagnosis, but hopefully you will get positive news with your scan results. xx

I'm trying to think if I had any symptoms but I would know if I had been in pain, I eat a lot of spicy food so I may have had stomach ache and put it down to that, ive had no bleeding and when I had my coil removed last November there were no signs of anything on the cervix then, I went to the doctors as soon as I had some blood because I thought it was a uti as the pain felt like that, can I ask what symptoms you had and ignored please xx

I ignored very bad post menopausal bleeding and extremely bad pelvic pain. So those don’t seem to apply at all in your case, which is a big positive! I should have gone to the doctor as soon as I had these symptoms, but hindsight is a wonderful thing. You went to see the doctor as soon as you thought there was an issue, so that’s also positive in getting diagnosed quickly. xx

Thank you so much for that that had made me feel a little better xx

I have seen ladies diagnosed with cervical cancer without symptoms, but it tends to be early stage. The more advanced the stage, in my experience and from speaking to many other women, the more symptoms they have, particularly pain and abnormal bleeding. Try not to get ahead of yourself before all your results are in and the stage decided on, as it’s impossible to guess and it just causes so much worry. Are you expecting a call today with the scan results? xx

She said early this week, I had the scan at 2pm on Friday so I don't know how long it takes xx

Mine was back just less than a week after the scan if I remember rightly. and it was the last piece of info needed for the MDT. We feel things move slowly but they don’t really, and all the info is needed for the MDT to make the correct treatment decision. xx

So true [@Minska]‍ ! I used to try to read the faces of everyone that I encountered during the treatments, tests, etc. I learned from my therapist that doctors/nurses  often have "checklists" in their heads that they go over, sometimes out loud, in front of their patients, not understanding how it affects us! He actually works with people in the medical field on that kind of behavior. 

[@LauraP]‍ I think it’s something that really needs to be worked on, with input from patients. Doctors deal with this every day, but it’s our first time hearing these scary words and we can obsess about them, and how they’re said to us. I had to learn not to do that! 

[@LauraP]‍ I think it’s something that really needs to be worked on, with input from patients. Doctors deal with this every day, but it’s our first time hearing these scary words and we can obsess about them, and how they’re said to us. I had to learn not to do that!