Hi I am not sure if you will see this message but I am desperate to talk to someone as I am terrified. I had a smear test done on Friday my first one I am 39 I suffer with severe anxiety and depression so always put them off as the fear made me seriously ill. I actually was proud of myself for going on Friday I knew it had to be done as I have children and I've been feeling a little better with my anxiety up until now. They found a mass on my cervix pretty big and they were very concerned they have referred me to a cancer specialist who deals with colonscopy ever since my smear test I have been getting throbbing aching pain in my private area and pelvis I also suffer with watery discharge have done for as long as I can remember. I don't have any bleeding as of yet but I am convinced I have cervical cancer I was finally given the appointment to see to see the specialist on Monday and i am terrified she is going to give me bad news specially with the pain I am dealing with it doesn't sound to promising for me. My mind won't shut off and I am constantly terrified I lost my cousin 3 years ago to cervical cancer so i know what to expect I just want someone who understands to talk to as I feel so alone right now I really hope you you this reply xxx

Hi Sara,

I waited 2 weeks. I know the waiting is truly awful but try to keep busy I know its hard. I am now waiting on scans etc the consultant said about 3 weeks so I've still got another couple of weeks to go. 

Try and take it day by day I am thinking about you.

Take care x

Thank you so much for replying they found a mass on my cervix and I am getting agony pain in pelvis which can be very intense at times. Just wish Monday would hurry up so I know for sure if it is or not I am sure it is. So sorry you are still waiting it must be so hard for you I am also thinking about you hun xx

Hi Sara,

You have done the right thing going for a smear. I missed my smears for 15 years and since finding out I have cervical cancer I think about this daily. But we have to move forward you don't yet know if its cancer I could be many things but finding out is the right thing to do. Fingers crossed it will be good news. I didn't have any pains until the doctor said it could be cancer then I developed pains all over so I think we just read into things and before you know it you have every symptom. Keep off the Internet it does you no good. Xx

Hi Sara,

I'm so sorry you are going through this and feeling scared. But you are not alone, there is me and [@Minska]‍  and [@AMF]‍ and many more out there, I'm sure. You are on the right track and doing what is the most important, getting checked out and taking charge of your health. Yes, waiting is the worst part but once you know what's going on you can confront it and make a plan on how to proceed. I feel like no matter what happens, you will be well on your way to managing your health anxieties. You are right to be proud of yourself, now take it one day, one appointment at a time. Keep us posted.

Laura xx

This is what I have at the moment . I have been to my colposcopy appointment & my letter has come back with high grade dyskaryosis . 
still waiting for the results

I am experiencing tummy cramps & bloating 

I'm hoping it's due to anxiety 

Hi Amf 

Thanks for the reassurance hun so sorry to hear you have been diagnosed with cancer. Did you have any symptoms before diagnoses? 

You are right Google is the wrong place to be right now its making me totally worse. A few people have said to me the pain could be because I am over thinking it and I keep praying it is just confused what the mass could be if it isn't cancer  

How long ago were you diagnosed with cancer hun and have you started your treatment xx

Hi Sara

Some of the best advice possible, which the ladies have given, is keep away from google and take one day at a time. Don’t try and diagnose yourself or read anything into how medical staff looked-it will drive you crazy! 

Our  minds can play tricks on us and anxiety can make us feel every little ache and niggle, but it’s only cancer when the doctors tell you it is, and the waiting time for results is horrible. Once you know what you’re dealing with, it becomes easier to cope with everything. xx

Hi Laura

Thank you so much for getting back to me. I have been having such a bad time with my anxiety and fear. 

You are right least now I am in the right hands. Can I ask how advanced your cancer was when they found it.

My pelvis starts up as soon as I go for my first wee in the morning its like a stinging, heavy dull ache feeling yesterday was the worst with the pain. I have no bleeding as of yet. At first I thought maybe it's a bad water infection but I had it checked last Friday and it was clear.

Just be glad when I get my appointment on Monday so at least then I know what's what and what needs to happen if it is xxx