I feel so low

Having had the good news that my breast cancer hasn't spread to the rest of my body, i initially felt great relief, but it's suddenly hit me like a brick that I still have cancer and i now feel incredibly low. Very few people know that I am ill. Those who do are still reeling from the shock so I don't want to burden them , but I feel awful. 

 

 

  • Hi ladies

    Progess today, managed to get up, dressed and went shopping by 10.30 am very proud of myself!  I've also been to the hairdressers for a bit of a tidy up, I'm only bald on top so far as I've been using the cold cap which is quite torturous but it's holding back the inevitable. My hair is still ok at the back apart from the colour, my fringe is a bit higher up these days - I'm not sure where to start my foundation lol - but it's hanging on in there.  I told my hairdresser I wanted foils and and up do which he said I can have after Christmas, but he's snipped away the tatty bits and I don't look too bad now and he didn't charge me, bless him.  It makes me realise what things I took for granted before like treating myself to a hair do.  At least I felt a bit normal today, not just a cancer patient.

    I've only got 1 more T to go, thank goodness.  I started herceptin with the last chemo, that's okay I just had to wait 6 hours afterwards with the canula in just in case I had a reaction - I didn't other than being extremely bored!!!

    Just think ladies, this time next year.........................

    Take care everyone
    Tracey xx

  • One more Tax to go then surgery early January probably. Roll on Easter!! 

  • Hi ladies

    How is everyone?

    I'm so pleased to say I finished my chemo last Thurday!!! Hooray!!!! Radiotherapy due to start 10/12/15, I've been for CT scan and tattoos today - OMG they hurt and yes, I have got tattoss anyway but at least they are decorative!

    I'm just glad the chemo has finsihed, I still ache in my legs and hips (they feel like they belong to someone else) but I'll be back at work next week gosipping and getting told off for too much taliking no doubt lol!

    I'll be glad to see the back of 2015, bring on 2016 for me and all here's hoping it brings good health for all of us.

    Take care 
    Tracey xx

  • So pleased you are nearly finished.  I  hope radiotherapy will be fine for you, like me.  I had very few side effects, only a slightly red breast and a little tired, but this tiredness may have been due to the chemo.  I began taking Tamoxifen during radiotherapy.  

    I am going on Tuesday for my three year mamogram, I always get very nervous as the appointment gets near.  

    Take care

    Diane

     

     

  • I have a relation who keeps saying to everyone that I am going to be alright.This has upset my children who are in their early 20s but are aware of the facts. They know the reality that when mine is removed and put under a microscope and I am regularly scanned - only then will anyone know how serious this is and some idea of prognosis. The facts are that I may not be ok and it may recur and that I won't be back to work within a few days. Maybe it is her way of dealing with the shock...

    Talking to friends has really helped - me and them. 

  • Right. Chemo finished and see surgeon next week to see what happens next eeek!