I feel so low

Having had the good news that my breast cancer hasn't spread to the rest of my body, i initially felt great relief, but it's suddenly hit me like a brick that I still have cancer and i now feel incredibly low. Very few people know that I am ill. Those who do are still reeling from the shock so I don't want to burden them , but I feel awful. 

 

 

  • All went well with my first treatment. Had lots of anti sickness pills to take and i have to inject myself from Saturday onwards. Seeing the wig lady next week. So all progressing well. Just relieved to have started treatment. I know there will be bad days but today is not one of them.

    hope you are ok. Thank you faor caring xx

  • Really good to hear yesterday went well for you, long may that continue.... as you said, it must be a relief to have got started. Good luck with the injections and I hope the good days out number the bad ones. Take care Sue x

  • So far so good. No side effects yet apart from looking a bit flushed! I'm becoming used to taking regular medication for the first time in my life and am takinG my temperature daily. It's all very new to me but I am getting used to it and trying to establish a routine. I have become much more aware of my eating habits and am trying to supplement my diet with healthy options - more fruit and veg and some honey to boost my immunity.

    Hope you are ok and feeling positive xx

  • Hi Flora, getting into a routine with anything new takes some getting used to but it sounds like you are coping really well with everything, good for you. Unfortunately, I have zero will power as far as eating sensibly is concerned. In fact, the more I think about the good stuff, the more I indulge, and then blame the hormone tablets for my weight gain!

    Take care and look after yourself.  Sue x

     

     

  • Hi Flora, I have been reading your posts but having had my first chemo on Friday wasn't feeling up to much! Felt yucky for the first couple of days but a little better today. I am having my injections starting tomorrow, the district nurse is coming. I was given the opportunity to do it myself, but am not at all confident for that - so I do admire your decision on that.  I also saw the wig person, and collect mine on the 4th, as short as possible so hopefully the shortest time to have to wear it!

    like you, and I suspect everyone else on this awful trip, I have my up days and down days. Slowly I am beginning to learn to ride with it, tomorrow seems to come with a bit more optimism and talking on here really does help. Everyone is so kind and understanding.

    so, nice to say hi to you, look after yourself, and be gentle with yourself.  Hugs xx

    margaret

  • Hi Margaret, looks like we are both embarking on a long journey towards better health together. Sorry to hear that you've felt yucky after the chemo. I guess I've just been lucky. There's nothing to fear from the injections, they really are easy to administer and believe you me , I hated needles and had been  known to pass out when giving blood in the past!  The whole unit is self contained and you really can't go wrong. It's whatever you feel that you can cope with I suppose and there's a lot to cope with at the moment! I suppose I just prefer the anonymity of doing things for myself. I have very nosey neighbours, not the helpful types  at all, and if they saw a district nurse calling round , the news would be round the town before she'd left through the front door!! Not that I am notorious in the town , but most people know who I am and they love to gossip!! 

    Good luck with this treatment . Let's keep each other strong! Love and hugs to you.

    Flora

     

  • Thanks for your reply. I didn't realise injecting yourself was easy, the nurse can come any time of the day, which is inconvenient to say the least, so I just might see what it is like and give it a go myself.  Do you know if it has to be done after every chemo session, I forgot  to ask? 

    Like you, I haven't told anyone except immediate family and two very close girl friends. I  have neighbours who seem to enjoy other folks troubles, and although no doubt they will all know in time, I'd rather keep,things to myself for the moment.

    at least you get a bit of understanding and sense here lol!

    best wishes xx margaret

  • I got the impression that you need to inject yourself after each session to stop the sickness. The nurse gave me a special bin for discarding the needles safely, although they are perfectly safe once you have injected yourself. She told me to return the bin when it was full, so.I presume that I carry on next time.

    During my treatment I was shown how to use the needles and how to inject myself by the nurse. The whole injection is self contained, everything is measured out exactly. You just pinch an inch in your tummy and press the plunger . It stops automatically and the needle retracts . You'll probably be fine with it once the district nurse demonstrates it to you. I was also shoown a DVD of someone using it and decided there and then that I could cope, no problem. 

    Nosey, unhelpful neighbours are a pet hate of mine and I will do all that I can to stop them from prying. Fortunately , at the momennt i am staying in another  town with a close friend. I have arranged to go to the local hospital there for blood tests so that I don't have to attend the local surgery! 

    Subterfurge is such fun! At least it distracts me and gives me moments of joy knowing that I am keeping my business to myself as much as I possibly can for as long as I can. 

    Good luck with the injections xx

  • Hi Flora & Margaret, I hope you are both doing ok and are getting a lttle more used to your new regimes? I love the idea of you "skulking" about to avoid the nosey neighbours too!.

    Take care  Sue x

  • Hi Sue, yes things are coming together a bit thanks. A male nurse arrived today, who I mistook for the postman , so perhaps it threw the neighbours off scent too lol ! They will be talking about other things with strange men coming into the house........... What fun! Hope you are Flora are doing ok. Take care Margaret xx