Oh Flora, I think a great many of us will empathise with how you are feeling. The initial shock and then more tests, scans and appointnents and then the treatment starts.  You will, given a little time, start to come to terms with it.  Come on here and talk to us anytime you want.  We are always here.  Take care.

Thank you for replying. Just had a bad couple of days having to tell my close family and go back and forth for tests . Thought the worst would be over when i got the initial diagnosis but now i have to face bone scan and mri to see if it's spread. So scared but haven't really taken it all in yet. I want to cry but am afraid that once i start i won't stop! I need time alone to let it all sink in , but with all these appointments and a bombardment of information my mind just can't cope! 

Hi Flora, sorry to see why you are here but you have come to a great place for help and adivce. It's also good for just having a rant when you need one!

As Pauline has said, we all understand the initial shock and fear of a diagnosis, and the waiting between tests is truly unbearable. You go from not knowing anything to knowing something but not everything and all you want is for it be sorted out NOW. It is a real whirlwind and all you can do is stumble along as best you can. Telling others always makes the situation more real somehow and then you worry about them too. You will get through it though and once you have a set plan in place things will get a little easier for you, honestly. I hope you don't have to wait too long for the scan and MRI results and do come back and let us know how you are doing, if you would like to. Take care of yourself.  Sue xx

Flora I can empathise with you totally as I was diagnosed last week and am feeling just like you. I am hoping this will ease a bit once I get a treatment plan. Hope things are a little better for you now x

Hi,

thanks for the reply. Started treatment yesterday and feel so much better and more positive. I am dreading losing my hair, but know that it's a stage to possible recovery. So. On with the journey! 

Hope all ok with you too. X