After my Grandad was diagnosed with Lymphoma, i've found it really hard to talk to my family about the 'c' word. Me and my family prepared for my Grandad to be diagnosed with the 'c' word as the docters had told us it was most likely going to be it. I thought i would find it easy to talk to my family about my feelings however lately i've tried to bottle them up and have discovered that i find it easier to talk to others that are dealing with similar issues eg. my friends or online chats! My Grandad has recently started kemo, and is being treated with it for another 4-6 months, he doesnt really understand the issues of his illness and the risks of kemo, like the lose of hair etc. He's very stubborn and doesnt really listen to these things just wants to get it over and done with, its very hard as he doesnt like to talk about it, my mum says that 'in the olden days' people didnt wish to discuss the 'c' word, this is hard for me to understand as currently the 'c' word is talked about everyday, discussed with friends and at school. Its nice to know that people are going through similar things as me! I call it the 'c' word not because im scared of the illness, just that it doesnt desearve to have a name really, it is the biggest ***!