Wow I was in denial, reality packs a punch after surgery. I feel worse then when I was told I have breast cancer. Watching my mum taking my daughter to school this morning walking hand in hand down the drive made me realise this is all too real now. And I'm feeling less positive than before the lumpectomy maybe I need counselling. I feel like running away until it's all over, unrealistic obviously but I'm getting the "what ifs" again and panic mode. Anybody else felt that way???xx

Hi Kim, great to hear from you! So sorry you are feeling down, but it could just be the effects of the anaesthetic and surgery, I did feel worried for a few days I must admit, but on the positive side, the bad bits are out now and you are on the road to recovery.  Be kind to yourself - every day you will feel a bit better.  I am two weeks post op, still quite sore,  bruised and swollen and get tired very easily but I am on this journey now and can only look forward.  Got my app for tomorrow to see what comes next and I am not wholly looking forward to it.

looking back to how I felt this time last week, I can see an improvement.  Sadly, I don't know what to expect on the recovery time frame, but I suppose it is just taking one day at a time......I did far too much yesterday and went to sleep on the sofa at 3pm, woke up at 8, went to bed and woke up at 6 this morning! That just tells me to behave myself and take it easier.

Look after yourself and try not to worry too much, give your breast nurse a ring to put your mind at rest if necessary.

Thinking of you and sending best wishes and hugs xx Margaret

Hi, so glad to see you back but sorry that you are struggling. Remember, it is very early days after your op and having painful physical reminders of what you are going through can be a stark reality check. I found I had the opposite feelings initially, having my op meant the cancer was gone and I was going to be ok but then, like you, I started thinking about the next stage and how to deal with that. It can be totally overwhelming and my only advice is to try and take it a step at a time. Concentrate on healing first and don't be too hard on yourself, no-one is expecting you to be superwoman. Let family & friends look after you and you'll soon be back doing the school walk again... Take care and look after yourself.  Sue xx

Hi Margaret, glad to hear you are getting there slowly but surely. It does take time and, as you found out, you just have to pace yourself as best you can. Lots of luck for tomorrow, will be thinking of you.... take care  Sue xx

Hi, Kim, so glad your operation is over with.  Anaesthetics can depress you too, so give yourself time.  For 4 months after my operation I was feeling tired, but I just let myself sleep whenever I needed to, it's just your body repairing itself.  Keep us posted on your progress.  Will be thinking of you.

Margaret, will be thinking of you tomorrow. Wishing you all the best. x

Sorry for the wobble, feel so much better ladies thank you all for your replies, your all so lovely and it really helps to lift your spirits. No doubt there will be a few more but I know the support from you guys will maker feel positive again.

Margaret I hope all goes well tomorrow lots of love Kim xxx

Hello Dottie, I am in denial with my son's cancer... I know the confusion ... what an emotional roller coaster this is.... you haven't lost the plot, your brain is just on overload... sending you a virtual hug. xxx

Hi Planetnod, Im so sorry to hear your son has Cancer, can i ask how old he is? You will get a lot of support on here and some good advice from people who are in the same boat as you. I hope you find it as useful as I have.

Sending you a virtual hug too xx

Hello Dottie, thank you for your reply. My son is 27. He has testicular cancer which has spread. But the oncologist was difficult to understand. I have sent the nurses here a message with the diagnosis, so maybe it will be a little clearer soon.

How are you feeling today? Or is that a silly question?

Keep the virtual hugs coming, they are very comforting.... sending you another one.... xxx

Hi Planetnod, Gosh your son is terrihbly young to be going through this awful illness. How is he coping with it? I know what you mean about understanding what they are saying, i was advised to take a note book and write it all down.

To be honest Im feeling pretty chirpy thanks but the itching around my incision scars is driving me insane!!! And worst of all I cant wear deoderant so i hope the weather doesnt get any warmer :D

I hope you get the answers you need to battle on through this nightmare I think you will feel better once you have the answers and will be able to move forward. I hope your son is feeling as positive as he can as it truly does help and you look after yourself as its easy to get lost in your own emotions, i know its easier said than done!!! 

Sending you another big virtual hug and positivity xxx