A waiting game

So Friday I went for my results and although I was expecting them to say the Cancer had spread, which it hadn't, I was still shocked as it's a grade 3 which really worries me.

its been a week now since I have been diagnosed with breast cancer and I actually think I'm still in denial. I've been through all the usual emotions but now I'm seem to be a little too calm about it. Does anyone else feel the same?? Maybe the panic will set in when I have my op details through. I have still not told my daughter and I'm dreading it as I know she going to be distraught, she hates in when anyone is I'll.

i have also been getting a lot I'd pains in and around my chest and around my back and shoulder blades this is also worrying me that it has spread, but then I'm in denial again and it's not happening to me.... I think I'm losing the plot!!!!

sorry posted this in the section and won't let me change!!

  • Hi Kim, just wondering how you are getting on? Lovely weather today, I hope it is where you are. Been sitting in the garden, I could easily have wrapped myself around a glass of red, but have had to take some paracetamol for an annoying pain in my back (?) so thought I had best make do with lime and soda instead.  I am still sore and swollen but the bruising is fading slowly, at least now I have some idea of the progress for the next time.

    anyway, just wanted to say I am thinking about you.  Hugs xx Margaret

  • Hi Dottie, i just got my results today and was told i had cancer cells in a lump which they thought was a cyst, I'm in total shock, feel sick, my breast feels sore and my left arm feels numb, i have to wait until Monday for an MRI which seems like ages away, paranoid now because i've been getting alot chest infections since January and thinking is this related and the cancers in my lungs :(

  • Hi Suzy, so sorry to hear you have such a horrible shock today. The MRI is a good things though because it is better at showing exactly what the issue is and they can then put a treatment plan in place for you. Once you know what the next step will be things will get a little easier. I know this is easy for me to say but having been in your position, and been as terrified as you are now, I can promise you that you can & will get through this. Take things a step at a time and distract yourself over the weekend in any way you can. When I was at this point myself I felt all sorts of aches & pains that came to nothing in the end and was mostly stress related I realised afterwards so hang in there and come back here as often as you like. We all know how difficult it is and totally understand your worries. Take care   Sue x

  • Hi Margaret, I'm doing pretty good to be honest although today I feel really tired, I think I've over done it this week, walking to school and back then into the local town and back, and lots of spending!! I'm still bruised and I have to be careful how I move, for me the worst is the strange feeling under my armpit It makes me cringe!!! 

    I'm glad your enjoying the weather, it's a little hit and miss here sunny one minute cloudy the next. Sorry your having back pain, it's not the meds your taking? I got constipated on the meds I was on which gave me back ache.

    Im off away this weekend so looking forward for a few days away and change of scenery. I too will be refraining from a glass of red as I'm on tramadol :(

    hope you sort your back pain out soon

    Kim xxx

    I hope you get your back pain sorted.soon

     

  • The armpit thing is really strange isn't it? I am completely numb and washing and trying to put on deodorant is really most peculiar! I am so worried in case I pong lol.

    every day I seem to get a twinge in a different place, so I doubt it it will be in the back tomorrow. Feels like a bruised bit really.

    good to hear you are doing well anyway, and have a lovely weekend away.  My birthday is over the weekend, so I will be having a good time as well.

    hugs Margaret xx

  • Dear Kim & Margaret,

    Very glad to hear you are both getting along ok, albeit with bruising, twinges and aches. I too had numb armpits and, like you, it did feel very odd for a while.

    I hope you both enjoy your weekends and Happy Birthday Margaret...

    Take care  Sue xx  

  • Yes I think I was beginning to pong as well. I had to change my own dressings and take of the steri strips, not pleasant!!

    have a fab birthday weekend Margaret and many happy returns xxxx

  • Hi Margaret and Kim, I do hope you are both okay, what Sue says is absolutely right.  Stress is an awful thing and really can make you feel very ill and hurt in places you didnt know you had.

    Have a wonderful weekend Kim and happy birthday, Margaret, enjoy your day. xx

  • Hi Suzy, I really feel for you as I was told it was nothing to worry about it was probably a cyst and that was by the surgeon who the told me a couple of hrs later I had breast cancer. But Sue is right once the panic stops and your better informed about treatment plans etc you will feel a lot calmer and more clear headed to kick this nasty disease into touch. Wishing you good luck and keep in touch.

    Kim xxx

  • Hi Sue and Pauline, I hope you are both well too! I'm sure I will have a great weekend even though I'm meeting my partners father for the first time and I can't even have a glass of Dutch courage either

    I hope you both have a great weekend and hope the weather stays fine 

    Kim xxx