Hi Sarah, welcome to the forum, but I know you would rather not be here for the reason that you are. It sounds like you are, and have been very close to your Mom all of your life, and I'm sure she has been there for you all of your life. Now, being faced with her terminal illness has devastated you, and that is understandable. I won't lie to you; this is going to be really hard for you over the next months, years that she will be in your life. You need to take care of yourself as you go through this with your Mom. Do you have other family members and friends around to help and support you? You need to take all the help you can get. Are you able to talk with your Mom about her illness or is she not willing to discuss it with anyone? It would be helpful for both of you if you can share your feelings with each other. You can also talk with her medical team to perhaps get some help there.

My heart goes out to you Sarah at this difficult time. You will get through it, although it won't be easy. You don't say how old your children are, or if you have shared this with them. Also, do you have a partner in your life who can be of some help?

Come on to the forum anytime to get support from people on here. It does help to put your feelings and fears in writing and it can be very helpful. Take all the help and support you can get.

Hugs to you and your Mom

Lorraine