My beatiful mum was diagnosed with a rare type of nerve sarcoma exactly one month ago, and we all had to drop what we were doing an come home (optionally and by choice of course). She doesn't want anyone to know because she doesnt like feeling pittied and she likes to keep her life personal. She told her children and husband obviously, as well as her sister and best friend. But because of this I feel like I have no one to talk to. Leaving my gap year program has left me bored at home all day doing nothing but worrying and googling survival rates. i have told only one friend, but her father passed away from sarcoma and I feel bad talking to her about it, and i have thought about talking to my mums best friend but i dont want to upset her. I cant talk to my older sister because I feel selfish sounding like it only affects me.. I can't even speak to my friends because they talk about every day stuff and I don't want to hear about it and i just feel lonely and sad