Thank you Ben. It's just so unexpected. I've been wondering whether to see a doctor about IBS or a knee replacement - i never thought i would be discussing this! I have another blood test this week, then the consultation next week. I have a phone number for a specialist nurse, and I did get a call back yesterday when she talked to me and explained a bit more. But i still can't really take it in, and think there must be a mistake. It's very complicated. My mother had myelodysplasia which eventually caused her death, with much discomfort and difficulty for her. I think i feel guilty still for not pushing for better care for her - she was in a general ward for 3 months at the end and they assured me she was getting the same care and treatment, but I wanted her to be in Hospice. I don't know. So many feelings.