Waiting breast biopsy results but consultant confident it will be positive. I'm so scared of what comes next and need someone to talk to who understands

Hi all , 

Am absolutely terrified . Thought I found a lump 6 months ago that seemed to come , go then came back and stayed . Went to GP 3 weeks ago who didn't think it was sinister but referred me to breast unit . Had appointment on Monday and consultant after seeing mammogram and scan is confident it is sinister .. Now just waiting for biopsy results .. Lump is somewhere between 1.3 & 1.5 mm according to the images.  Am just so scared of what comes next and desperately need someone to talk to who understands x

  • I was the same the night before my first op, but all was really straightforward.

    This time tomorrow you'll probably be spark out ad can play catch up.

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Jolamine

    Think I've managed to sleep for an hour  I have a feelings going to be a long day xx

  • Hello 'B'

    I hope you got a bit of sleep, oddly enough I'm awake early with much on my mind. My house has got into rather a mess after the loss of my Mum, COVID and too much outside work on my hands so it got very neglected. I have been trying to get on top of it before my op on Thursday which has been a good distraction, but it's had it's challenges as well. Am trying to make it a bit easier for me to reach things as I live alone and am fiercely independent, so don't really want lots of folk coming around, but will need help to walk my little dog as she pulls and barks if she sees another dog.

    Having said all that the real reason is that I live in a village which is well off and I'm not, so it sounds daft I know, but am fearful folk will judge me and then turn away if I let them get too close. 

    One thing I know is life is never easy all of the time but it surely is a wonderful ride nonetheless! It's a bit like the rollercoaster of our emotions on this cancer 'train' we are on. We were all given a ticket and a seat and we are not entirely sure of the route, or the destination, but have to place our trust in the knowledge and capabilities of the staff and the train driver that we will be brought safely to our allotted station. It's all out of our hands which is why it's hard not to get anxious and worried.

    I think it's very normal to feel all over the place especially when the train is running in the dark, but the light always chases away the darkness and you will be all smiles once you come around from the anaesthetic later today, of that I am convinced! I will be just as nervous as you on Thursday, so you are not alone. We are sitting side by side in the same carriage!

    Lots of virtual hugs and the best of wishes to you

    'V' xx

  • Hi,

    This is not unusual. In a few hours this will all be behind you and you’ll be able to relax.


    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Butterflywing,

    I have been thinking of you all day today. I hope that your operation went well and that you're not feeling too sore. Wait until you're feeling a bit better before letting us know how you are.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hello Butterflywing,

    I hope you are feeling a little happier now your op is over .

  • Hi Ruggles

    I definitely am ! It's such a relief to get that bit over with . It was no where near as bad as I expected so all that worrying for nothing ! 

    Thankyou for your message ,its lovely to know we are all there for each other xx

  • Hi Jolamine

    Thankyou for your message 

    As far as I know the operation went well . Didn't go down till 4.30 yesterday so was a long day but was home by 9 which was nice .

    Don't feel sore at all today ( at the minute ) and feel really well so am.hoping that's normal and not me just on a post op high !  xx

  • Hi B!

    So glad it all went well and you are free from pain this morning! Well done you! All the very best

    V x

  • Hi V

    Sorry its taken me a while to reply , I didn't have my op till 4.30 yesterday and.got home at 9pm .

    Op went well and I'm relatively pain free and up and about today  infact I'm probably in danger of doing too much if I'm not careful !

    The op was no where near as bad as I thought it would be , one minute I was awake talking to the anesthetist about mushrooms the next I was waking up in recovery ! 

    Keeping busy with the garden sounds like a good distraction  but take care of you first . Your what's important!!

    Sending you lots of love ️ xx