Ive posted before. Im really struggling mentally. After  positive biopsy for cervical cancer 4cm mass in mid October , ive just had Pet CT scan and MRI this week. Keep having negative dark thoughts  inking the worst. Im 65 and this all started with a postmenopausal bleed.in October. Ive always had regular smears , my last one being 2022 which was ok, then told it wouldn't have anymore because o my age. My gp said they dont test for abnormal cells but for hpv, which she said i tested low for. I  went for a pelvic mri, during the scan the radiographer placed another magnetic device higher up  so now im thinking did he see a spread and that's why he went higher, irrational thoughts. One minute im sending positive thoughts out, the next im thinking the worst. Sorry to waffle. Im just finding this so hard, im feelimg dread and gone off eating with the anxiety. Having a "woe is me day". I know everyone is also experiencing this. My thoughts are with you too   x