Hello SarP and a warm welcome to Cancer Chat, 

I am sorry to hear about your lung and brain cancer diagnosis and that there is also possibly something on your liver. Spending 10 days in hospital can't have been easy; it must have been a really exhausting time for you too having to go through all these tests, the biopsy on your lung before being able to go back home. 

As you say, it's only been 12 days since diagnosis and there is so much to take in, it's all been a bit of a traumatic experience for you and it is all still a bit raw since the shock of the diagnosis. It's completely understandable that these dark thoughts are creeping in and if you feel that you are really struggling emotionally, don't hesitate to get in touch with your GP and explaining how the news has impacted you. Have you seen the specialist since the diagnosis and do you know what treatment they might be able to offer?

Don't apologise for how you are feeling as you have every right to feel this way and the forum is here for you anytime you need to offload or talk to others who have had a similar diagnosis and understand what you are going through at the moment. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hi SarP 

Im sorry about your diagnosis. My cancer was totally different to yours but all the same fears and thoughts. You are allowed to feel sorry for yourself so don't apologise. It's early days at the moment but once you get a treatment plan in place you will feel more in control of things. You may have already had a look, but if not look on macmillan forum it is split into the different cancer types so its easier to connect with people going through the same as you. My little bit of it was and still is very helpful and supportive to me. Sending hugs. Xx

Thank you for responding, I should hear about the biopsy within the next 1-3 weeks, apparently then a team of drs will work out the best way to proceed and also a life expectancy, I am hoping h as I have suffered with PTSD for many years but thankfully have many coping mechanisms so they are now coming in handy, staying away from and questions that involve why? Is a big thing as I’m not going to have any answers and it will only lead me down a rabbit hole which is not healthy, I’m also hoping that as the drs have seen me ‘coping’ that it will also help give me as many choices/chances as possible. 
it just really sucks and seeing how it has completely changed the way I think things is a shocker

Thanks so much, thankfully I found macmillan in the hospital so they have already been helping me  which is great, but I will have a look on the forum, I’ve just got to accept my new ‘normal’ 

as a silver lining though my agoraphobia hasn’t been playing up

I will, and thank you ️