I’ve recently been told I have a very rare malignant mass in my chest which is likely Cystic Thymoma or possibly (but less likely) Thymic Lymphoma and I currently feel no emotions towards this. I’m scheduled for surgery and pending the outcome could need radiation or chemotherapy but I still don’t feel like I have cancer, has anyone else felt like this? It feels strange to even tell people that I do because it doesn’t seem like I actually do have it. I feel like I’m lying despite the fact it’s very much real. I asked them several times to clarify it definitely is and they have said the PET scan very much confirms it is but just not the type until it’s biopsied.

Has anyone felt similar and then had a delayed reaction to it? I keep being told how brave I am but beside some slight discomfort and mild pain I don’t feel unwell and I don’t feel I have anything to feel brave about as I don’t feel like I have cancer. 

Any advice or anyone in a similar situation? 

Thanks :)