Welcome to Cancer Chat. I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling - this forum is always here for you whenever you may need it.
My reply will give your post a little boost, so hopefully you'll get more replies from others. You may find it helpful to search for other discussions using the bar at the top of the page, although there may not be too many on this specific topic - but there will always be others here to listen and offer support.
Keep speaking to others where possible, as it often helps to talk, even if it's just writing things down on here.
