Hi Michaela61, 

I am so sorry to hear you dad has been diagnosed with stage 4 colorectal cancer and is having palliative chemotherapy. It is normal to be lost for words and to feel like your world has been suddenly shattered especially as they have said the cancer is terminal. This is so heart-breaking and it is not selfish at all to want him to be there for the important milestones of your life, getting married, having a baby. I hope that the palliative chemotherapy they have offered will improve things for him with minimal side effects. It's normal to be scared and to feel worried that all his options have been exhausted but do talk to his medical team when you next have an opportunity just so you know whether the palliative chemotherapy is having a positive effect or if there are other options available to him once all the rounds of chemotherapy have been completed. 

You have come to the right place though to talk to others who are in a similar place, who have a loved one who is going through palliative chemotherapy or have been diagnosed with advanced cancer. I hope you won't mind but I have added a little bit more information to the title of your thread so that it can be found more easily by others who are in a similar situation. I hope someone will be along shortly and share their story with you. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator