I don’t even know what to say or do. I’m lost for words. I really don’t know how to express anything going on in my head. Out of nowhere my world has completely shattered. My dad’s been diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic colorectal cancer, which has spread to his liver and lungs. They’ve said it’s terminal. But they offered him palliative chemotherapy. 

He’s putting up the fight. He is the bravest person I know. 

I have an overwhelming fear every single day of losing him. I just don’t know how I’d cope. I want him to see me get married; I want him to be around to be a granddad one day. I know these things sound selfish but I just want him here to experience life with me. I can’t loose him. 

They’ve offered him another two more rounds of chemotherapy, so a max of six as they’re worried chemotherapy could be making him weaker. Would there be anymore options? I just don’t want them to give him up on him. I’m so scared