Hi all, think I'm mainly posting to get it off my mind a bit as I still am having tests. Went for a colposcopy and loop due to high grade dyskaryosis, they found cancerous cells in the sample they took with the loop, first it was 1a1 and they had got it all but they wanted more tests as the margins were fuzzy and decided it was bigger than 3mm so 1a2. Im not sure if that still means they got it all or there are just cell changes in the fuzzy edged bit. Anyway, 3 mdts later the consultant called last week and said as it's now 1a2 they're sending me for an mri to check my lymph nodes. I'm trying not to overthink, on one side they've got it early, but on the other side a year ago my colposcopy just showed minor changes so this has gone fast. The consultant asked me about fertility, ive got 2 kids under 4 so my family is done and I'm happy to have a hysterectomy if that is what's needed to be on the safer side. I'm just worried now as what if the mri finds its in my lymph nodes, will they just remove them and then it'll be OK or is that me terminal then? The only experience I had with cancer is my mum who died 4 months after a stage 4 diagnosis five years ago. So I'm on the scared as hell side of things and the what if that happens to me thought train. Trying to stay calm until I've had the mri but this has all escalated so quickly I don't want to assume the best and get told the worst. Thanks for reading if you've got to the end.