This week I had a colonoscopy which resulted in a bad result. 

For almost the last year I have had mild-moderate  symptoms of ibs. As the year progressed in 2024 within 9 months I had 3 family bereavements and we were putting my stomach problems down to stress greif and anxiety. Within the last 3 months from approx October 24 my symptoms worsened with stomach cramps, bleeding increased and only recently have I had a gradual weight loss. 

I was then referred to hospital gastro unit. At the beginning of Dec 24 I had bloods taken due to tiredness and everything else going on and my doctor told me I was anemic and my blood results showing a bit of inflammation overall and inflammation of my liver. He referred me for an ultrasound. On Christmas Eve the doc called again and said the liver function had returned to a normal level but encouraged me to still go to the ultrasound he reckoned it was a form of Inflammatory bowel disease and he wasn’t too concerned that liver ultrasound would come back with anything

. My colonoscopy followed after and straight after my colonoscopy doctor told me he was 99% sure what he took biopsy’s of was bowel cancer but we will wait on biopsy’s coming back in. The ultrasound results are  now showing shadows in my liver and the GP who called to tell me this told me the “likelihood is it’s spread” all this without biopsy’s! He then ended his phonecall by saying “sorry it’s not good news”

It’s literally been 2 days since this happened my life has turned upside down in two days I have potential bowel cancer with the thought that it’s spread. Without concrete definite yes. I’m not saying they are wrong but I’ve never been so overwhelmed with the amount of serious info about my health .. I’m a 30 year old mum of a 2 year old .. I’ve never felt so alone and isolated through all this. I’m petrified but refuse to believe that this going to floor me. I was looking for reassurance and been given constant problems with no soloutions. I’m so scared .. can anyone advise or relate?