I have recently been told I have a tumour in my rectum which is cancerous. 

I was referred by my GP 16 months ago and when I finally got an appt the "Consultant" asked me why I was there to see him and why I had been referred.  The fact I had been bleeding for over 2 years and was in pain didn't seem to register with him and he said he thought I was "just" suffering with colitis or ulcerated colitis.  I was so relieved!  He referred me for a sigmoidoscopy and the surgeon who did that advised me that it was a cancerous tumour. To say I was shocked is an understatement.  I've had scans and was sent for a colonoscopy yesterday which I was informed by the surgeon as I was about to go into theatre that I didn't really need one as they had a scan of my colon already.  I feel terrified but feel like I'm just being pushed around and nobody apart from the lovely surgeon who told me it was a cancerous ulcerated tumour who had been so kind.  I work for a GP and I know the NHS is running broken but I just wish someone would tell them how scary it feels when you get this news.

The meeting is on Thursday but I have no idea what to expect.