Hi,

Yes, this is normal. We live in fear of the word, and if we are diagnosed it doesn't feel real. I remember feeling detached from it all and in a blur during appointments. I'm post treatment now, waiting to find out if it worked, and I'm still often overwhelmed and prone to crying. Unfortunately we have to go through it all, there's no escape, and it's a horrible, frightening experience, but there are people who can give support and encouragement and there are many uplifting stories of people who have ended up with no evidence of disease after treatment and gone on to live happy and healthy lives. I would say talk to your Macmillan nurse. Mine was a godsend when all I could do was cry and worry. She was so supportive. I feel for you and wish you the very best x