Loobyloo2.

Hi loobyloo 2 I'm sorry to hear of your diognoses, yes it is such a shock when your told you have breast cancer  it really is hard to take in,as it's not something you ever wanted to hear, I remember this feeling like it was yesterday, even though my diognoses was in 2020. I like you was told a lumpectomy of my right breast and all my lymphnodes were to be removed as some contained cancer cells too. 

I was  so scared  but I had the operation  and was terrified to look at my right breast, but when I did I cam honestly say I waa pleadingly surprised at how well the surgeon had done my breast looked so much better than I ever could of imagined  my  surgeon did a fantastic job moved breast tissue around so it looked so normal.  All surgeon's  are  trained cosmetically in breast surgery ,and are fabulous at what they do,apart from a slight dent near my armpit where lympth nodes were removed you can't see any scars on my breast ,as scars on my breasr are under the breast. Yes the scar in my armpit is there,but you have to lift your arm up high to see it. The area underneath the armpit is still numb,so I use a lady shave on that area, not razer with blades as can't really feel what I'm.doing . But you will be well looked after I'm sure of that.  I did have to have chemotherapy 8 rounds and 15 / 3:weeks of radiotherapy.  I got through it all as have so many on here. Good luck with it all,here if you need to chat, don't bottle things up .x

Hello Jassoscared. Just want to say thank you so much for your reply. It was so very kind of you. Pleased to hear that you are out the other side now and cancer free  As you say it is all very scary at the moment. I have my appointment on Wednesday with my consultant who will then probably tell me everything and hopefully a date for the lumpectomies. I am thinking I need to take a notebook and Lao prepared questions? As when they told me I had cancer and did I want to ask any questions I didn’t! I think I was just in shock. But now of course I have thought of a few things to ask. 
Everyone is telling me to stay positive! But I’m struggling with that concept at the moment. Although I’m trying to be brave for the sake of my family. The waiting is the worse. Xxx

Looby loo

Yes the waiting is hard,you are right  about being in too much shock to ask questions at the time your diognosed, it kinda felt like i was in a dream and I wanted to wake up and it all to go away, I like many couldn't get my head round it at that time,it just didn't seem like reality. But then in time it hits you,and you start to think of all the questions spinning around in your head that you want   answers to ,and  need to ask the oncologist/ cancer breast nurses etc.

I wrote questions down,like what grade and stage was my cancer,what treatments was I going to need and for how long,.when and which hospitals would I have it done at. I was told I'd also need to go on to letrazole  for 10 years, this strips you off of estragen as this is what my breast cancer was feeding on,it gives you a better chance of stopoing the cancer returning,does have a lot if side effects ,but you dont always get them all and it takes aroubd 3mths fir your bidy to get used to taking them, i found after trying many different brands Accird brand suited me better, and i was also prescribed Adcall,which is a vitamin D and calcium chewable tablet tutti frutti flavour, which to be honest are really nice to take. Not everyone needs the same medications or treatments it will be tailored to your body  and tyoe if cancer ,grade ,stage etc. But once you get your appointment and have discussed evertything, you will have a plan of action, and feel more in control. 

Staying positive is good, but not easy to do all the time, we are only human and will worry about things from time to time. My  adult son,who was also diognosed with testicular cancer just before I was,said Mum my motto is,don't worry too much,you really don't have much choice,you have to just get on with it all the best that you can,that's the way I look at things mum,its happened we can't change that, but we can take control,take all the advice and trestments offerd and kick cancer to where the sun don't shine,it won't beat us mum,we're going to win. So every time I had a bad thought come into my head I could hear my sons words,and it helped me sooo much. And my son was totaly right,we both got through it,as I'm sute you will too. Good luck with evertything, always hear if you need to talk..ps I have written quite a few poems on here,which I kniw has helped some people, just me writing how I felt at times in verse. Hopefully you will remember to write down the questions  that you want answered,wedensday will soon come around.xx

I am swearing my head off. I cannot give you concrete advice I'm not qualified but I send you love and strength and a hug 

Hello again. Thank you so much for your reply and also the words of wisdom from your son. I will be reading those through a lot I’m sure! So sorry to hear that your son had cancer too. What a nightmare for you both. But thank goodness your both ok now. 
As you say it does feel a bit like a dream. Just not real. Presumably with time it will all sink in! 
I would love to read your poetry but not sure where or how I would find that on this site? My technical skills are limited!!!! 
thank you once again. I’ll keep you posted. 

Loobyloo

Thank you for your reply yes it did knock me for six when my son told me about his cancer,but he was a trouper actualy said to me mum im.so excited to be having chemotherapy ( he had much more weeks of it than I did,was hooked up to it in london hospital from the Friday right through till the Monday,then the week off  and all started again the following weekend,which I think if I can remember right was around 267 hrs of chemotherapy) where as I threw a wobble when I was told I'd need 8 rounds of  chemotherapy and 15 sessions of radiotherapy, I said no at first but my son and daughter said mum your all we have left,we can't lose you as well  as my husband  thier dad committed suicide in 1997,that made me realise they were right,so I agreed to stop being stupid and go through with everything I was offered to get well again. In 2015 I had to have a right side bowel resection  as I had high grade dysplasia, in the right side of my bowel, which was pre cancerous cells which I was told if I left it  it would probably turn to cancer,then I got a hernia a year after that the bowel came through the incision where I'd been operated on causing a hernia,so bsck I went to get it repaired.  Both took a while to get over ,so I think I just felt I'd had enough  but my son and daughter made me wear my sensible head  thank goodness for them both.  As for finding some of my poems  if you go onto my profile and click on Actifity it should bring up all my comments and replies, and some of my poems ,some were written few years ago now,so would take some scrolling lol. My last poem I wrote recently is called  it's quite normal,  some of them are not there  I think they go back to far. But as I said you can find some by going to my profile and clicking on my Activity. Do let me know how you get on,on Wednesday. Xx

Oh and if you type in christmas poem ,( on the moving on category) you will find my 2023 Christmas poem. I also wrote one about the cancer chat forum ,but I can't seem to locate that or some of the others I wrote, but as i said you will be able to read some. Xx

Looby loo oh I just found another poem I wrote it in the coping with loss category  called mum.

It's how I felt  when losing my mum..

I cant remember where  or what category I wrote some of the other ones ,but they must be still on here somewhere. Shame they don't have a poem category, on here ,as others have written poems on here before as well,it would be much easier to  find them and read them .

Looby loo ,found another poem in the category   pre signs and diognoses, its called.. In The Still Of The Night.