Attended A&E a week ago with some pain that GP had fobbed off, multiple tests later and consultant shared the news that I have a malignant growth at the bottom of my eosophagus, with spread to my liver and lymph nodes in both lungs. There is no cure. I am 46, and less that 2 years ago had endoscopy which was completely clear.
telling my husband and kids was heartbreaking and I’ve not yet had time to wrap my own head around this. Can’t help but wonder if things would be different if GP had actually bothered listening. Waiting now for MDT meeting on Friday to discuss treatment options for comfort rather than cure.
everything was going so well, perfect new job, kids happy, and about to celebrate our 20th wedding anniversary, think job will be first casualty, only been there a month.
unsure what to expect, no idea how to hold my family together in the face of this, not sure my instinctive will to fight will help, not sure how I cope with not being able to work.
apologies for rambling, head is all over.
C
