I'm really sorry to read your post Pauline and all that you are going through.

I can't begin to imagine how difficult this past year has been for you but I hope you can take some strength, and comfort, from knowing that the Cancer Chat community are here for you and hopefully it won't be long until some of our members stop by to offer you their support and advice.

If you'd like to talk any of this through with one of our cancer nurses, you can do so on 0808 800 4040, Monday - Friday between 9a.m - 5p.m. They're very understanding and will do all they can to help.

We're thinking of you Pauline and wishing you all the best moving forward.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hi there Steph 

i would call the number unfortunately with voice I cannot talk on phone so can’t call 

thankyou it’s been so hard ,and harder when they can’t stage it like last time 

they won’t know till they open me up apparently and biopsy larynx wen taken out and because of radiotherapy in past seems tissue has been damaged to 

also not sure if lymph nodes affected in neck again wait and see 

I had a lovely larengetomy nurse out , yet still I don’t want this done I think the year has taking its toll well over a year since I thought  something was wrong and feel it’s been left to late also how last biopsy on right side was clear and then this last biopsy both sides done and it’s the right side they see something this time and maybe left to makes no sense at all and right vocal cord since that biopsy being paralysed which was not before 

I know they say it’s a chance at life having total Larangectomy but I think I’m not strong enough to have this done 

thankyou for replying and  listening 

pauline 

Hello Pauline

From your post, it sounds like you're in a really difficult space at the moment and I can understand that the last year has taken its toll on you. You have got a difficult decision to make and it's natural that you want to ensure that it's the correct decision for you. 

As you've mentioned in your reply to Moderator Steph that you're unable to contact our nurse team by phone, I wanted to reply to give you a couple of other options to try and connect with some support online. 

You can get in touch with our nurse team via their Contact Us form. Macmillan also has a Live Chat service available via their website which you can find information about at the bottom of this link here. 

I can't see that we currently have any members here on the forum who are living with a laryngectomy but we do have quite a number of members on this thread who have a range of experiences with head and neck cancers. You might want to have a look through some of the posts and may be able to connect with others who understand some of what you're dealing with. 

Keep in touch Pauline. We'll do our best to support you. 

Best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator 

Hi there Jenn 

thankyou that’s a great help and yes big decision,to make .

and I will keep in touch and appreciate having some where I can come for support .

regards Pauline