Hi I would just like to introduce myself as newly diagnosed with a lymph node mass in the groin and lymph nodes in the pelvis area.

I had cancer in 2010, 13 yrs ago with breast cancer which was treated with surgery  ( lumpectomy) then radiotherapy. After feeling safe from the dreadful C word for 7/8 yrs I was diagnoses once again with bowel cancer. Diagnosed and operated on with a month, 8hrs of surgery, 4 months of Chemotherapy and a stoma for 7 months followed by a a reversal of the stoma, when the trouble really started,I would refer to myself as the new me. My bowels never really recovered and were very unpredictable, I have managed to get over this and carry on as normal as I could possibly be until recently, about 4 months ago. 

I was struggling with dreadful nightly pain in my hips and then my groin area which didn’t seem to present during the day light hours when moving around. This continued for about 2 months I was seeing my bowel cancer surgeon on my yearly consult and mentioned it to him, he decided to do a CT Scan to rule out anything nasty, he rang me 3 days later on a Monday morning to give me the news he said he was extremely concerned about, he told me I had Diverticulitis ,deep vein thrombosis in my right leg and blood clotting on my lungs, the worse bit was  lymph node mass in my pelvis and groin area, which turned out to be cancer cells. I was told to go straight to my local hospital who would be expecting me and to take an overnight bag just in case. I was kept in for a week. It’s been a terrible ordeal and at last almost three months later I have started a combination of radiotherapy and chemotherapy together, having had plan A :surgery ruled out because of positioning and to near my blood vessels.plan B: Sabar radiotherapy which is a very aggressive form of radiation over a short period of time, also ruled out because the mass was too large. So I am on plan C. I’m so worried because I can’t get any straight answers from anyone. Should I be planning my demise, I had 2 children and 3 grandchildren whom I was always hoping to see grow to be adults, the not knowing is just awful. I need to be able to know what my out come might or might not be. 

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