Hey 

I have recently been diagnosed with advanced Stage 4 rectal cancer with multiple Iiver metastases. I'm 47 and have 3 older children and 2 beautiful grandchildren.

I suspected for sometime there was something wrong but I was ignored, I didn't fit the criteria, mistakes happened resulting in my late diagnosis.

I started my 3 month chemotherapy this week and pray and hope I can live 10-20 more years, I have so much I want to do.

I'm a nurse myself but I feel clueless, helpless, angry, let down... I want to scream ... I'm a good person, why me! 

I'm scared and I'm not ready to die yet!

Is there anyone on here in a similar situation or lived with something like this for some years? 

I feel like I need some hope right now...

Thank you for reading