So I've been diagnosed with bowel cancer it's in my caecum and is a large tumour. I am due to start chemotherapy probably the end of January to try and shrink it. I saw my surgeon today who told me he is worried it's pushing on my tube connected to my kidney and a small spot in my stomach, but believes this will be treated with chemo and taken out at the operation if required! And probably need my ovaries removed. He did say that the chemotherapy isn't palliative so that's one positive. I just feel so bad like is all this treatment really worth it or should I just admit defeat. I have elderly parents who are doing their best and I feel such a drain on them! My surgeon did say if it doesn't shrink he will operate anyway. So far it hasn't spread to my kidneys pancreas , lymph nodes or lungs. I have been having bad thoughts and cannot sleep. Any advice I would be grateful
