Hello, 

I'm devastated, I can't put how I feel into words, It's like everything is falling apart. My mum has been diagnosed with cervical cancer, one morning she started bleeding heavily and went to the hospital- where they did a biopsy. She has only just told me that she has been bleeding on and off for the past 2 years, which makes it more worrying. I have spent some time with her but now I'm back home alone- which makes it so much harder because I'm so far away from her and I am alone in my thoughts. 

It feels like time is going so slowly, I'm just praying so so hard and being so positive that it's early stage. I don't know how to stop having these negative thoughts, I start back to work on Wednesday and I just don't know how I'm going to cope there, I wanna be with her every step of the way. 

Sorry about the rant and If I uploaded this to the incorrect place- I just needed to let it out and feel less alone.