Hi laraj

The appointment was cancelled, rebooked for Monday but my GP confirmed my histology results for me so I didn't have to wait all weekend waiting and 2nd guessing!

I have IDC but have to wait till Monday to see the consultant to find out more information and the treatment plan. 
So, for now I will carry on milking my goats and picking up the poop lol, I'll probably make some more soap this weekend, do a bit of food shopping, and chill and see what Monday brings.

Hope you're well, have a good weekend, sending hugs x

Hey Sausage,

yep my hunch was correct :-)

I feel ok at the moment, I just needed that confirmation for now anyway. Those feelings may change once I meet the consultant and that's ok too, one step at a time.

It's still very surreal at the moment.

I look well, I have no symptoms,  I don't feel unwell, how can I have cancer? 
i just need time to process the information and let it sink in.

your kind wise words have really helped xx

Dolly 68

This afternoon I went to local hospital for my pre assessment and having lost 10kg and 2.5 cm in height since last October when I went through the same process as last year.

Now I've been elevated to high risk because of shortness of breath and dry cough and difficulty in reaching 250 on the Wright meter when I blew out a breath.

The tumour is growing 2mm a month so the sucker needs removal quickly!

One of the nurses made me laugh when I told her I was having a new tumour removed because she said I looked really well despite being so ill.

This was probably my problem going to the GP several times and looking the picture of health along with other people who look so well that we are classified as the "worried well".

Like you,  I look well but I was feeling really tired like I had hit a wall.

We both have been dealt a wild card and we will shake ourselves then dust our selves down.

If you need support there are many of us on here who will share the good moments and the not so good.

Sausage 1

I hope the schedule you for surgery soon, that sucker needs to be 'gone' no one wants a lodger who's not paying rent!!!!

we are the 'invisible sick' lol I have been feeling tired often falling asleep in the evening for the past few months in front of the tv, but I put that down to being knackered from work, and I have dropped some weight but again I put that down to running around at work and after the grand kids, but maybe they are symptoms of my 'sucker' lol.

I think it just shows that maybe we should listen to our bodies and take symptoms more seriously and question them. I know I would if a patient came into me with those symptoms, yet I neglected myself and didn't contact my GP with my symptoms. It was only when I had my mammogram thank god that my IDC was picked up and I had no breast symptoms.

This site has been a god send, and the support is amazing.

I really hope you hear a date soon for your op Sausage xx

Dolly68

Hi Dolly68

In answer to your question  yes. I had had a mamagram in 2019,I could feel a very tiny lump, but was told if it was anything it would be picked up by the mamagram.

I waited for my results which came back clear, nothing to be worried about. 

So forward a year my son called me in 2020 to say he had Testicular cancer, he was only 34/ nearly 35. I was obviously devastated.  He had 267 hrs of chemo up in a London hospital.  It had spread to his stomach 5cm tumour,and to his chest 3cm tumour and a spot on his lung.  But he is ok now all clear,just has checkups bloods taken ,scans  every so often but alls good.

Anyway I started to check my breasts  and found the lump I'd felt before  but it was bigger. So for two weeks I kept prodding and feeling ,wishing it would go away  as I thought how can I tell my son and daughter.  But I told my  daughter, who said Mum you have to go to doctors .I obviously did,and was sent to breast clinic urgently , 2 week refferal. I was seen had another two mamagrams ,and nothing showed up . I then saw consultant and she could feel the lump, just as I could.  So she arranged for an ultrasound and it showed up there. This was in May 2020. I I had 5 punch biobsys done three in the breast and two under my right armpit. Then I had a metal marker clip put  into my breast. 

I was told to get dressed and come through to the next room. I was told by my consultant right there and then that I had breast cancer,and she was unfortunately 100% sure as she had seen it so many times before and knew by the size  ,shape and hardness of the lump, and that it didn't move. 

So yes it does happen that way sometimes. 

 I'm on here from time to time  so if you want to chat about things  I'm here for you  .All i can  say is I got through it all,my son got through his,and I hope you will too if  big hug sent uour way.xxx

So sorry 

but hey we are here always for you you sound good and positive that's all you need beat the beast you can do it xx if hugs lots of love Lara x

Hey Lara

i have my big positive pants pulled up round my ears :-)

i'll be popping on here for little chats and advice no doubt about it ;-).

I will beat this non paying lodger!!! 
much love to you xx

Hi

That is such great news that you and your son are doing so well now , it makes my heart sing ️
I know it's not all doom and gloom, and I'm staying positive, I know it won't be easy and l know it will be emotional at times but I'm going to try and stay upbeat and motivated.

Thank you for you kind offer of support,  it means a lot, sending hugs snd hope you and your family have a lovely weekend xxx

Love the positive pants , have a good weekend lots of love xx 

Hi

well today has been a funny old day

I went to my appointment and the consultant apologised for cancelling Fridays appointment, very sweet of him, but then he dropped a clanger of all clangers!!

'Consultant sooooo,  how can I help you?'

me Errrrrr pardon

consultant 'you're under the family history clinic right?'

me Errrrr yes, well I was due to attend Friday to receive my histology and MDT results as I have IDC

consultant (squirming in his chair) errrrrr oh oh right let me just go and check my notes ( leaves the room)

comes back into the room

me - are we good now, do we know what we are doing now?

consultant apologises and we are back in track although my faith in him is zilch so I have changed consultants.

Anyway, I have IDC grade 1 oestrogen positive, still waiting for the HER2 result which could change my treatment plan again. I have been tested for the BRCA gene today, started on letrozole and will be going back to the hospital in a few days to have a tag in my right breast.

surgery will be after the results of the BRCA test which could be up to 6 weeks.

So guys that's my day today much love to you all xx