Hi all

I'm posting on here to do something other than look at Google (which definitely hasn't made me feel better!). I have had endometriosis and adhesions in the past and and the usual pain I get on the left side near my hip returned about a year or so ago. It is very much cycle-related as it's only there in the week before and during my period. 
 

anyway, I had laparoscopic treatment about 6.5 years ago and some lasering was done so, despite my Consultant's reluctance I said I wanted the same treatment again as I was pain free for over 5 years. Long story short I had the laparoscopy 3 weeks ago and all went fine apart from the surgeon finding "white spots" on my ovary (think it was only one ovary). He removed them and sent them for biopsy and yesterday afternoon he called me in to say they were cancerous. 
 

My world has collapsed . I have a 5 year old girl and an 8 year old boy and all I keep replaying is the negative things he said. I've put below what he said as I'm now in the awful waiting time for, most likely, a CT scan. 
 

it is low grade; I'm clinging onto this very tightly!!

it is metastatic on my ovaries and he doesn't know where the original source is (he said most likely bowel, reproductive organs)

he said it was rare

he said that there is no mad rush on anything. I'm going on holiday with my parents and kids on Saturday for the first time in nearly 3 years. He said I should go and had he known I was going away he would have just made the appointment for when I come back

I know in reality there is nothing anyone can say but I'm just desperately looking for any positive stories/support. Has anyone else had anything similar? What keeps sticking in my mind is that it has already spread and that I've read low grade are not as affected/treated by chemo. The positive is that I have no symptoms, it has been picked up earlier than it probably would have been as I insisted on op and consultant said most of his colleagues would have just lasered the spots off and put them down to endo whereas he prefers to remove and send for biopsy. 
 

aaaahhhhhh "rare and spread" just keep coming into my brain