Hi Athena

ive read some of your previous posts and I'm really sorry this has hit you so hard. Not surprising at all so don't apologise for how you have been feeling. I'm waiting for biopsy results from 40mm lump and thickened lymph node plus another suspicious area. It's really scary and like you i immediately thought the worst. I keep feeling twinges, pains and itches in all sorts of places and can't help thinking it's cancer that's spread. All I can recommend is keep busy, talk to people who understand or are supportive, go for walks in nature, etc. I also pray and sing and try to keep trusting that whatever happens God is with me. I'll pray for you, if I may? Sending hugs x

Hi Amy I am absolutely terrified 

I have had three missed calls from the hospital 

inhadca pet scan last week so now think that the cancer has spread 

I can't eat sleep think at the moment 

Did you try returning the calls? Try listening to some calming music. Honestly, it will help. Nothing is certain right now, so try to make the waiting easier by thinking positive thoughts. Thinking if you x

Hello Athena, I just quickly jumped on here before going to bed...........you say your chemo starts saturday, so at least things are now moving forward for you.  Huge numbers of people achieve very good results from the treatment you are having.  Once your treatment starts Athena, you will begin to calm down, you really will.  At the moment you feel you are entering the unknown, but once that first chemo session is out of the way, you will start feeling more positive.  This is no walk in the park Athena, you have a long journey ahead of you, but the walk of a thousand miles begins with the first step.........saturday is your first step and you will reach that thousand miles........you will get through this.  I have been praying for you, and please get on to your nurses if you miss any calls.........don't ignore them, take care mate, and good luck for saturday, Violet, xxx

Hi Amy 

I thank you very much for your kind words  it means an awful lot to me to know people genuinely care xx