Hi Pink, I totally understand your position in all this, it is so distressing for most people diagnosed with Breast cancer particularly if they have children, fortunately my children are all grown up.

I too was diagnosed with IDC in September last year, It was grade 3 ER positive node negative  BC, 2 cm lump. I too had a lumpectomy but also had the oncotype test done which shown I would benefit from chemo. I had 6 cycles following surgery and then radiotherapy and am now on Letrozole fir 5 years.

It is quite distressing seeing yr wound for the first time but it will heal and looking at it gets easier, I am 7 month post surgery and you can barely tell I've had anything done, it is a bit indented I have to say but I'm fine with it.

It is certainly a rollercoaster ride for most people. I havnt come across anyone that hasn't worried themselves sick about this journey and this continues even after treatment, it's only natural!

Its difficult to tell anyone not to worry but in order to get through all this it helps to try to think positive which I certainly know is hard. Maybe remember too that this journey will come to an end and you will start to live again, maybe a bit differently but it will come back just takes time.

Good luck with your next surgery hopefully that will be the last. 
There are lots of lovely helpful ladies on here so please just keep asking if you need help, you will get the support you need from others that have experienced the same or similar experiences. Anything I can help with please just ask.

Take care lovely xx