Hi Violet 

thank you so so much for your support, the kindness of strangers is unbelievable, 

I have a wig fitting soon , not that I am vain but I miss my hair, I had grown it from my profile picture and have shaved it off .., I was supposed to be be getting married on the 17/09;after 30 years together, it's our meeting day anniversary... 

we have now postponed it till next year .. 

tomorrow I will dance I think , my daughter said mum please have a boogie down I miss boogie nights with you... so I will xx 

Thanks.  That's the same one I had.  I had 5 of Filgrastim for every 1 dose of EC chemo.  I have no idea why we get different amounts but I did have 10 during one round of Docetaxel.  I only got to 7 of them though, my white blood cell count went far too high.  Your red and white blood cells are lowered considerably while on chemo and your body doesn't have its usual defences, aka your immune system. I didn't have the bone marrow pain from Filgrastim until on Docetaxel.

It will be because you're HER2+ that you're getting the EC chemo quicker.  They put you through the first type of chemo quicker because of it.  I got mine every 2 weeks also. 

Lol, sadly it won't be reducing just yet, or so you would notice.  But it would be great news to get a reduction in cells showing in your next scan.  Calcification can be left behind when cancer cells are killed, which unfortunately means the same size as your original tumour needing to be cut out. But that is much later on.  The cancer shouldn't be sore, maybe pressing on a nerve.  Keep positive and hopeful and only phone up about the Filgrastim if it starts causing pain in your collarbone or above your breasts.  It's quite obvious to save you guessing.

You stay on your feet if possible a reasonable amount of the day for blood clot avoidance.  I think that's very sound advice from my Oncologist.  But as the others say, have a rest and get your feet up the rest of the time, watch a movie or treat yourself as chemo can be quite intense on your body.  You need to rest too.   

Did they give you steroids? xx

Hi Athena,

Most of us are probably guilty of reading things we should stay away from.  But what you're still doing is trying to get your head around this, and that's fine.  You can't force your head to be ok with this, there's a range of emotions you need to go through but what you have to hold onto is that you are now on chemotherapy.  And it's doing something right now to your fast growing cells and most likely to the cancer cells too.  Ok? 

Not sure what the low current feeling could be but it doesn't sound anything to be worried about.  How about concentrating on your breathing over the next couple of days and trying to take deep breaths in and out to calm yourself?  Whenever you get in a panic.  And if no better, you could make a GP appointment on Monday to see whether you need some tablets to take the edge off your anxiety.

Having a sore breast is just something annoying.  It's not the cancer.  The hospital have carried out scans and seen what is going on in there.

Remember to go out walking through the day if you feel overwhelmed.  It tires you out a bit and calms you down.  You'll be ok.

How are you on the EC chemo so far?  

Hi 

my biggest fear hsppened 

I am classed as stage 4 

pet scan lucked up 

oligometastatic breast cancer I have cancerous cells in a lymph node near my liver

no organ spread 

mastectomy possibly double has been discussed 

inam hearbroken 

Hi 

my biggest fear hsppened 

I am classed as stage 4 

pet scan lucked up 

oligometastatic breast cancer I have cancerous cells in a lymph node near my liver

no organ spread 

mastectomy possibly double has been discussed 

inam hearbroken