Hello,

I was diagnosed with breast cancer on the 28th of March. As much as I had run through every possible scenario in my head and convinced myself of the worst when awaiting my biopsy results obviously it was still a massive shock when I found out. 
 

Im 28 and am very fit and have never been ill before. I had a lumpectomy a few weeks ago and have recovered well physically. I was riding a wave of positivity and I think probably adrenaline for a few weeks and was genuinely convinced I would be back at work last week. But mentally it has all caught up with me. I have such weird feelings about it all. It was caught super early so I don't need chemo so I almost feel guilty about it because it's almost like I don't deserve to be feeling so low right now. I know that sounds so weird. 
 

I'm getting married in 4 weeks and then start radiotherapy straight after followed by tamoxofen for 5 years. That's the part I'm most gutted about because I wanted to have a baby next year.

When do emotions start to settle down? I just feel like my life won't ever be the same again and I'll never the the same person I was before the 28th of March. 

x