This week has been a really surreal week,

Tuesday  I was told I have breast cancer, at 44 years, I think I knew deep down that I had it, but hearing it from the doctor is a different matter.

The hospital are moving things along very quickly which I'm very grateful for, the next day went to work without sleep really as normal just wanted some normality, told my boss who has been very supportive.

As the day went on and I Got home and had a shower, I notice bruising under my breast nipple and felt more uncomfortable on my side because before I had the Biopsy I have had a strange feeling on my side near the lump I found which is cyst,  the mac nurse thinks its nerve pain. 

my  mac nurse says the bruising coming out maybe because  ive been over  doing things. I realised I wouldn't be able to continue doing my job as its full on being a hairdresser/colourist and trainer.

So took the next day off, during the night thought alot about things and what to do next.

I left my job I love,  just for now to focus on me and my husband and 2 children, my daughter has just turned 18 last week and has just started mock A levels and my son is just 20 with Autism who needs a lot of support, we need to think hard about how we can tell them both about this.

My mac Nurse said they can talk to the exam board for our daughter as its a big year for her, as she's going to uni this year.

The people I have told have been so kind and supportive and I feel so loved.

I feel I'm going on abit, thank you for reading.

And to everyone in my shoes, keep strong and positive we got this!!!

Lots of love x x x