Hi all. Wow I have a lot to say here. So last September my best friend was diagnosed with breast cancer and she had her double masectomy and is now on tamoxifen, last week has been given all clear and no more other treatments and is cancer free! I rode the emotions for a few weeks and it set in and I was positive and it worked out. 
 

However, my joy wasn't going to last long. Yesterday my Mum was also diagnosed with breast cancer :(. Now I feel like my world has fallen apart. She's been told it's grade 2, has a swollen lymph node also and will either need a lumpectomy/masectomy and chemo and radio. She's a fighter and has had it confirmed it's not palliative and curable. 
 

But I feel devestated. It's not fair. Why my mum? I feel so guilty because I made everything about me in the past because I was the 'child'. One minute I'm fine and distracted and laughing and the next the nightmare hits me and a wave of tears comes out of nowhere. You never imagine it's going to happen to you. My friends and family have been amazing with support but why do I feel so alone? Mum wants to be treated as normal and I'm proud of her for having a fighting mentality. But if I could take it away from her going through this I would :(. 
 

Am I alone here?