At last I don't feel like I'm the only one going through this,  thank you to all the ladies that took the time to post x

i have always went for routine smears, always came back clear.  However it's been 8 years since my last,  this was purely due to being pregnant and giving birth at the start of pandemic.  The reminder came in and I booked straight away.  Had Pap smear on 1st Nov 21 and results came in 2 weeks later to my amazement being HPV High Risk with changes to my cervix.  I have to go to for a Colposcopy.  Still awaiting an appointment but states it could take 8 weeks. I AM GOING OUT MY MIND.  

Like most I turned to google as I was getting no support from my doctor purely told not to worry but in my mind I have cancer

I am 41 with 2 children 23  years and 20 month old.  I am terrified of the journey ahead. I know they state early detection is key but I worry I've maybe had this for years.  In terms of symptoms I think I have possibly have a tiny genital wart, slight bleeding after intercourse only in that couple of months on a couple of occasions but I put down to it being close to my periods or just after.  I don't have much in way of cramps, I don't think and what I have had I have again just put down to ovulation.  Is any of this signs of cancer?

at what stage do you need to be at to be offered a hysterectomy ?  I was looking to try for another however if I have the option I would rather that and have a fighting chance.

any advice or info would be greatly appreciated as this 8 week wait is really having an impact on my mental health.