Here I go again

So I had left sided breast cancer 3 years ago & found a lump in right breast in Feb 21. After 2 lots of biopsies I'm here again as the cancer is back but in my lymph nodes this time. I've got CT scan this thursday to make sure it's not spread elsewhere, then surgery & chemo. 
 

can't believe I'm here again & only found out Friday so very raw. Been an emotional weekend but feel surprisingly calm today. Not sure if it's calm before the storm or if my mind has come to terms already. 

Im not quite sure how to be which sounds weird, should I be normal & enjoy life or be sitting worrying?! Suppose different for everyone. 

 

I'm at work as the distraction is great & work from home so it suits me fine. Just taking day at a time.

I found this website so helpful last time you all of the lovely people on here to talk to  I had to come back again 

Sue

x

 

  • Hi 

    Sorry to hear your news. It's totally understandable your weekend was emotional.

    I'm grade 3 bc and waiting to see oncologist Wednesday to find out about my chemo treatment. I went back to work today just over 3 weeks post op. I didnt do full shift as to uncomfortable but it did help. They were shocked at my attitude as I've said I can't change anything, I have it so just have to face it and get through. They keep saying I'm brave, I don't think I am though.

    Hope all goes OK for you. 

    Louise x

  • Hi Louise

    Hope all goes well tomorrow  

    we sound very similar minded & getting on with it. I'm not sure if I'll crash at some stage but feeling very calm right now so making most of it. 
    My work have been great & are I think surprised at me being back already as I only found out Friday. I've gotta keep busy like you. 
    My motto is It is what it is, can't do anything about it apart from kick cancers butt & come out stronger the other side. 
    this time round will be different as going to rely on friends & family let them help coz they really want to & to realise that after working for same company for almost 20 years, I need to take a back seat now & concentrate on me. 
    this is all the advice I'd be giving someone else so I need to listen to myself!!

    love to everyone

    sue

    x