Does anyone have any experience with a skin sparing mastectomy with implant and strattice direct implant. I had wanted to have skin stretching instead but because I have to have radiotherapy the success rate would be reduced,

I have just had the operation a few days ago and am feeling very down - the breast implant looks so different to my other breast. Does it settle to look better when it heals? Has anyone else gone on to have surgery later on that worked better? Or does anyone have any words of advice? I know I should be focusing on recovery but am feeling so distraught with the loss of my breast - will it serve as a reminder that I had cancer all the time

Thanks in advance