After cancer twice, every ache or pain is absolute hell

Hi

Massive panic once again, dread when I wake in the night thinking the worst once again.

Not long since my yearly check up's and my iron level and bloods are fine.

Have yet another pain which I have had for a couple of weeks, also the past week, changes in bowel habit, going more and softer. So lost a couple of pounds the last week too maybe with going to the loo more. So could be 3 of bowel cancer signs which I have had in the past or me blowing everything out of proportion again! Either way I'm so sick of feeling like this. It is spoiling every day of my precious life.

Any advice would be great. The stuff going round in my head is torture. I was going to give it a few more days and then contact my GP or specialist nurses.

Thank you for listening x

  • Hi I'm new on here, I was diagnosed with breast cancer two years ago this month...I just read your post and wanted to say I'm the same - I have a check up and feel fine for a little while and then the effects of this wear off and I start to worry (again) about every ache and pain. I'm two years on and have "only" had cancer once (so far) and once is enough, so if you've had it twice and you're worried that's not only understandable but probably to be expected. I don't have any advice I'm afraid because I feel like I'm learning as I go, but I'm hoping that being diagnosed with cancer is a bit like grief; it's not a fear that will ever go away completely but hopefully in time it lessens and fades and it's something we learn to live with. Good luck, Hannah x 

  • Thank you for your reply.

    Glad you are doing ok.

    What a wonderful feeling when we have a clear scan, we feel on top of the world for a while and then we get a pain, anywhere and straight away we think that it can only be one thing.... where as before cancer we wouldn't have thought twice about it. Or we read something maybe someone famous is diagnosed and off we go again.

    I have been like this many times and all turned out ok except the once when my worst fears were confirmed and it was back and because of this I'm so scared if it comes back it will be missed so I always try to get things checked out early just in case.

    xx

  • I just read this post of yours. You're right to always inform your doctor of any changes. I told you about my Dad. Bowel cancer twice, chemo 2nd time exactly the same as you but my Dad even now worries even though he's been clear 18 years!!

    Its only natural but his bowel has never really been the same since after 2 ops. He has worried about loose motions etc. You have both had cancer twice so omg of course you will be anxious when something doesn't feel right. He has always been told that his bowel won't be the same after 2 ops plus chemo but he's 83 in March!

    it's never returned.xxx